Storms rumbling to the right of me, lightning flashing on my left. And straight ahead, white clouds and blue skies. Hmmmm……………sounds a little symbolic, doesn’t it? I’ll take it as such.
After arriving here in Florida some three weeks ago, my mind has been in a spin, my stomach, in knots. No “real” job yet, no place of my own to live, and little income in fits and starts. These are worries and fears in my mind.
My reality? I was given a house to live in, rent free, for the first ten days I was here. Across the street from the beach, I might add. With a fenced-in yard (and lots of great hiding places) for my cat, a view of both (dripping orange and hot pink) sunrise and sunset, covered porch, and rockin’ AC! From there, I was invited to live with my friend and her family for as long as I need to get regular income. So I have an instant family, people who care about and for me, a home that’s two miles from the awesome beach, and a screened-in porch and yard for my cat. Oh, AND I got a part-time job as a waitress last week, which I really like so far!!!! It’s fun to do some things that I haven’t done before or in a long time! And earn some money in the meantime.
People have been calling me for long-distance readings, which I love doing (and receive payment for!). They are filled with tons of confirmation, light, and information from Spirit, and I love the connection that I have with new friends through these readings.
I have had time and opportunities to continue healing on many levels. (This, I suspect, is one of the biggest priorities right now, one of the biggest gifts, and one thing that I have been overlooking for what my brain and ego feel, instead, that I “should” be doing.) I know in my heart of hearts, that the money will come, that I always have what I need, and that I will be, and AM successful.
So WHY am I anxious, nervous, and uneasy? I can only think that it is my old ways of dealing with change and new situations, showing up loud and clear, ready to be vanquished, dissolved, and replaced. Replaced by the trust and faith, peace and pleasure that life holds for me, and for all of us, right now. When I look at the weather, my health, my bank account, my list of friends, my refrigerator, my gas tank, my list of possibilities in life, and more, I see only good, abundance, joy, and comfort. I feel hope and gratitude. I smell rain and prosperity coming in. I hear encouragement and music. I taste new flavors and tears. (I love, and am now often reminded of the saying, “There is something magical in salt. It is in our tears and in the sea.”)
Life in the moment is all that I need, and really, everything that I have asked for at some point and at some level. And so to have what I have now, to just recognize what I have and enjoy it as much as I can, is what expands out into the Universe to bring me more of the same. Perhaps easier said than done, but certainly more easily understood now that I have written it!
I am thrilled to be here in Florida, living where I have dreamed of living for decades - by the ocean!!!!! (Well, it’s actually, I am reminded by those here, the GULF, but my heart loves it by any name!) If this dream can come true, then surely, other dreams are right behind, right? Guess I better get going, dream some more dreams. I’ll meet you on the other side of the rainbow!!!!
